quintessence

I’ve decided that one day I’m going to let him read my blog if he wants to. Maybe when he goes to college.. he still doesn’t understand what Tumblr is though I think which is why he hasn’t asked about it but I guarantee the minute he finds out, he will want to and I will let him… despite the fact that I promised I would never give another boy my URL but this one’s different… seriously. 

anthology-of-roses:

Six Word Love Story

• Finish Portfolio
• (Re)Learn to play piano
• Read books (no specifics yet)
• Get a job
• Make friends

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“If you don’t fully accept and love yourself as you are, you could be more prone to comparing yourself to others as a way of artificially boosting your feeling of self-worth.” — Steve Pavlina

“To overcome jealousy, just see how the jealousy came into your system, just analyze the sequence of thoughts and emotions in your system and then undo it by reasoning out the whole process with your intelligence.”
– Swamiji Nithyananda

And the worst is, I know it so I don’t express it because I know how psychotic I’ll sound so then I just bottle it up until I explode in one of my friends faces and then I get all mad and moody and to him it probably seems like its for no real reason and if I had one wish, I genuinely would wish to never feel jealousy ever again.  

(Seriously. If you’re a jealous person also- how do you get over it? Please help me.)

I had to hear it out loud today to believe it. We’ve literally only been dating a month and a half… thats literally nothing. So why do I feel like we’ve been together since forever? It’s very confusing and I’m afraid of rushing things and ruining them because I’ve been on the other side of it before and so has my friend and it really does ruin everything. But I feel like we’re so different from those other times… Idk. Just don’t screw this up, Rebecca. Don’t be an idiot. 

Okay wait, I just want to point out that my problem is that I’m comparing us to either 2-month relationships or 2-year. And there very different and I’m just a little unsure of what happens in-between those. 

Seriously. 

He has me wanting to plan a future together.

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I have literally 0 ideas but it needs to be perfect and awesome and I’m beginning to stree about it. 

SOS?

I may have drank too much, laughed too loud and slept too little but I have 0 regrets. 

That was probably the best damn 24hrs of my life. 

Seriously.. 

*And love. But right now, hate.